Support

I cannot thank each and everyone enough for all of the support over this past year.

It hard to believe that I have already been on dialysis for a year, I guess as they say time flies when you are having fun....

Well maybe that would not be 100% correct, I cannot remember to many days of this past year that was a lot of fun.. However, I did try to make the best of each day regardless of how hard it was,  I did always try to look for the light at the end of the tunnel..

Granted some days there was no light at all, or so I thought... Then I would log into my email and or face book and there were so many people supporting me and praying for me, I knew I would make it to the light at the end of the tunnel.

Some days I honestly felt like giving up and throwing in the towel. But in the long run my problems would be easier to deal with than death.

Someone once asked me "how do you do it Blake" they went on to say no matter what happened I always tried to look for the best in every situation and seemed to be as solid as a rock... (if they only knew...lol)

I went onto explain to them that it's not a choice I got to make. My choices are do nothing and die, or try to make the best of it and move on with life. Trust me if it was a choice, I would have never decided to go through kidney failure again.

I honestly don't know how some people live on hemodialysis as long as the do. This time around I was only on hemodialysis for a little over a month and everyday I thought it would be my last day alive.
The only thing I could do while on hemodialysis was go to dialysis and come home and go to bed. Even the days I did not have dialysis, I could stand up for about 10 minutes before feeling like I was going to pass out and I would have to go back to bed or lay down on the couch.

Those were the worst days of my life. I know as I have got older, some things are harder to deal with and looking around at the dialysis center seeing all the elderly people there, I just don't know how they do it. Some of them have been on dialysis for years, I just thank God every day that there was another option for  me.

Please don't get me wrong, dialysis is dialysis. Even though PD has been 90% better then hemodialysis, I still have some bad days. Like today for example, I stay in a state of border line dehydration and the least amount of fluid that comes off of me during dialysis can cause me to become dehydrated.

My blood pressure today, even after walking 3 miles before getting to the dialysis center for my shots was only 90/60 and my heart rate was almost 130.

I think I am the only dialysis patient that I know that drinks over a gallon of fluid a day. Even with drinking that much every single day, I still stay in a border line dehydrated state.

But overall I am very thankful that I have been able to maintain my PD dialysis.

I am very thankful for all of the continued support from everyone.

I feel like I have been truly blessed with some of the most awesome friends in the world..

Thank You and God Bless.